Today Was A GREAT Day... The Me I Used To BE

It's really nice to receive unexpected texts and phone calls. It not only lets you know that you were on someone's mind; but because you were and they took the extra step to let you know, it means that much more. I received both today and enjoyed catching up with an old classmate via text and my two best friends out in California over the phone. I love knowing that people care enough to let me know that I crossed their mind; however, there are other things I also LOVE, like receiving great news and being productive. Progress in any area I put my hands to makes me smile. I jokingly call myself Midas because like King Midas, I have that golden touch.

Day 11: I didn't rest well last night, tossed and turned too much and was distracted in such a way that I only got 4 hours of sleep and had a heavier than usual work load. My coworker is out of state and today I was bombarded with emails and situations that I normally wouldn't handle. It felt good to jump in with both feet and get everything accomplished. Problem solving, customer service and being proactive is instilled in me. It made me remember what I am used to, the person I am used to being. I like being the decision maker, I like management, leadership, and knowing what my role entails. People perish for lack of knowledge and I had begun to feel powerless in my job until today when I was reintroduced to that power through understanding of my position. I love learning and growing; I make investments into myself in some way every year. I love success and bringing people along for the ride. It's my way of leaving a legacy of lives touched and changed after having been in contact with me. I love training people and when I see the results of that training, it makes me extremely happy.

I left work and decided to treat myself to a nail day. Black nails and toenails... I used to do it all the time; but I hadn't in a while. I love them, they are super sexy. Well, I knew I was going home to an empty house because my daughter had a second and third interview today. She came home explaining everything to me and within minutes, she received a phone call for the third interview. When that call was over, she ran in my room to tell me the job was hers!!! Great News and as I celebrated with her, I enjoyed seeing her enthusiasm. It truly is an amazing opportunity and I am so very proud of her. I can represent her well on paper; but she took the meetings, did the ride along and ultimately impressed them in such a way as to secure the job. I love that she is that kind of person... she is MY kind of person.

I prayed for both of us as I left for work this morning. I prayed for God's presence to be seen in and through us today and it was. I never felt closer to Him in my position as I have today and I invite Him in daily. I thrived today... I know that was because I humbled myself, asked questions and found out what I needed to be successful in this day. I found out what I didn't know, was confused about and it ended well for me because knowledge applied is Power. It feels wonderful to actually feel like myself again and it is amazing to watch God open doors or opportunity and blessing for both Ty and I. Her opportunity makes us both excited because that is a tremendous increase. I couldn't expect anything more. GOD is the God of increase, He operates in multiplication more than addition; however, any increase is God given. He add to us and when he does, it is in such a way that we cannot even attempt to take credit for it, we just acknowledge HIS part to play in it all. For every good and perfect gift cometh down from above, from the Father of lights, in whom there is no variableness, neither a shadow of turning. He is the same yesterday, today and forevermore... HE IS VICTORIOUS ALWAYS and when we stay focused on Him, we too are victorious and we stay that way.

Walk in your new found power in this position and watch your market grow. Continue to lift her up and watch as the blessing of the Lord make your daughter rich and adds no sorrow to her. We are both walking in more power than I could have ever thought possible in this particular season. God is so faithful! I really wanted her to work with/for this company and now she does, it is such a major step in a totally different direction and I pray that she thrives there.

To God be the Glory for all of His marvelous works on today... those works He wrought in us, through us, for us and to us. He's a good, good Father and we are loved by HIM and we totally love HIM too. This LOVE it is reciprocal.

Today was a great day... look forward to more of the same.

Signed,
THE ME I AM GOING TO BE

THE GOAL IS GROWTH... BECOME BETTER IN THIS AREA ~ THE ME I USED TO BE

TO: THE ME I USED TO BE...

I do not understand people who do not take pride in what they do. I attempt to do all at 100%. I treat people with respect and kindness. I let someone get to me today. I really need to get better with that this year. I cannot control anyone else, and though that really was not what I was trying to do; I want people, rather, I NEED people to carry their weight. It doesn't matter in what area of life; just carry your weight, play your role because teamwork truly does make the dream work. I love when there is harmony in the day... unfortunately, I allowed someone's lack of unity to take me out of my peaceful place.

Day 10: If it was one thing only, I probably would not have cared but this day seemed to be a colossal amount of issues. I am all about solution and problem solving; however as a team, I can only go so far until I have to pass the baton. It was very disappointing to see that baton drop and the reason behind the fall was infuriating, aggravating, frustrating and every other adjective that means the same thing. I want people to care more ABOUT PEOPLE. This was not about me personally, a company is as good or great as its reputation and I strive to be an asset wherever I am. I wish everyone felt that way. It is obvious that is not always the case. Such a shame.

When I got home I just needed to unwind. I was mentally exhausted and physically it took its toll. I needed to relax and calm or center myself. I am much better now; but, it left me with a horrible impression of someone and I don't like that. Teams, no matter where or how they are composed should work together for the betterment of whatever the mission or vision is. I love my team at home... though it only consist of my daughter and me on an intimate level, I know without fail that she has my best interest at heart and I have hers. With my organization, my goal is to have it be comprised of like-minded individuals who have the same idea for the end result. Every area of my life this year is going to have harmony, no matter how it is achieved, and I am making the decision for myself that stress will not be allowed.

Well, I guess we will see how this plays out as this year progresses. I choose to see this as an isolated situation, as a day in a year, not the year in a day. I am right now choosing to let this day's woes go and start fresh tomorrow with a great mindset and outlook for the day. We decide how we live, what we allow into our worlds and how we react or respond to whatever/whomever is placed before us. In this situation, I must let go and let GOD have his way in me. As long as I know within my heart that I did my absolute best to SERVE and respect others today, I can rest easily and I will. I pray that others get it... like REALLY get it. We are here to serve and it is in that service that we are blessed. I believe some people are truly in wrong positions. Some are there by accident, happenstance and others choose to be places for the glory or the financial stability; however, if you do not do what you do with the fruit of the spirit; with love and kindness, humility, etc., then perhaps you need to rethink where you are.


We either compel or repel people with our attitudes and I recall this quote by Charles Swindoll so many years ago... it truly impacted me then. I am making it my goal to begin to live this way again. It blessed me at a time in my life when I was just beginning to grow in understanding of how to love and treat others. We were left with only two commandments at the end of the day; 1) love the Lord with our entirety and 2) love our neighbors as ourselves. What people miss so many times is we must LOVE ourselves before we will ever truly be able to give love to or even receive love from others. It is true that wisdom is the principle thing; but, let us never forget that though we are admonished to get wisdom, we can never operate in it properly without UNDERSTANDING. Put yourself in other's shoes just for a moment and you may just change how you treat them.

Dee, you WILL get better when people behave in manners that you disagree with, that is GROWTH and you are growing, my love.

Signed,
THE ME I AM GOING TO BE.

The Art of Being...LOVE. ~ The Me I Used To Be.

These last few years have been a blur. One incident after another, one disappointment or setback after another and I definitely lost sight of the woman I used to be and the woman I am becoming, She has always been right here... just a little neglected, trying to survive the changes that this life can bring. She was caught up in the hype of what she thought she needed in order to be successful, instead of just enjoying the art of being, just being ALIVE, awake and alive. See, sometimes we chase after things we think we need to live the life we desire and we find ourselves buried in a web of lies that others have submitted and we chose to believe as truth. The funny thing about truth is... we all have one and if we take the time, slow down a bit and examine ourselves, we will come face to face with our own.

Day 9: Today was a great day! I woke up early, spent quality time with my daughter, breakfast and then off to work I went. Work was satisfying... two conference calls, being briefed on the rest of the week; but, within that timeframe my daughter went on a job interview and stopped in to see me. She was so excited and I was elated. She actually got the second call back and starts a test run on Thursday! I am truly happy for her.

I complete my day and I decided to stop off at a store because she has been asking that I make Navy Beans today. I picked up a few ingredients and a few gallons of water, as I have also begun a new program to get myself back to or better than I used to be. As I drove home, I decided to stop by a Redbox, there were a couple of new movies I wanted to see in there; so, I collect them and head home. One of movies was scary so I HAD TO watch it immediately, while it was still light outside and there would be other things on that I would watch before retiring... yep, I have issues with scary movies. :) When it was over I got up to cook and I have never felt more peaceful.

Cooking is therapeutic for me. It allows all the cares of the world to dissipate as I lose myself in creating something delicious from raw ingredients. I LOVE COOKING. I LOVE FEEDING PEOPLE MY CREATIONS. I knew that about myself; but, it is funny how we can forget the things that bring us peace and joy. Today I was reminded of just how much I enjoy something so simple. I am reemerging, experiencing the truth of my being. I AM A WOMAN WHO LOVES TO CREATE. I love writing poetry that makes others think on a subject that I have chosen to delve into and seek out. I love writing stories and books that make people think that they can do and or be anything or anyone they want to be. We are awesome beings; yet daily we experience the mundane things of life without tapping into the greatness that can be created through us in the day. We can choose to speak life, which I also LOVE doing, to ourselves and to others. We can choose to inspire and to create. WE ARE MADE IN THE IMAGE AND WITH THE LIKENESS OF ALMIGHTY GOD, who created and still creates the worlds that surround us and He has chosen, from the very moment of our creation, that we too would be endowed with the power and ability to created worlds... and our very own world.

As I stirred the pot today, I was reminded of the love I have for this simple task. I was also reminded of how long I have wanted to try something else. Funny thing about time; it is not limited, though we treat it as though it is. God's timing is the best timing; so, in the evolution of time, I will experience all that I seek to. I am choosing in this season to enjoy the moments, seconds, minutes, hours of the days. To be fully engaged in the experiences of each day and to smile each time I discover a new thing that I ABSOLUTELY LOVE doing. This is the season to BE, to BECOME and to EVOLVE and as I do I look forward to more smiles, laughter, joy, peace and LOVE. I LOVE "LOVE". LOVE IS ALL AROUND US, all we have to do is open ourselves to it and we will discover that not only is it around us... IT IS US. WE ARE LOVE. WE EXUDE LOVE. WE GIVE LOVE. WE EMULATE THE VERY ESSENCE OF LOVE BECAUSE WE WERE CREATED IN LOVE, BY LOVE... ULTIMATELY, TO BE (OR BECOME) LOVE.

When we are simply BEING OURSELVES, the true and complete version of ourselves, we are living in an artistic and creative state. We live and experience the evolutionary ART OF BEING. WE ARE BEING/BECOMING ONE WITH OUR CREATOR... WHO EPITOMIZES LOVE. SO KEEP SMILING, MY LOVE... LOVE LOOKS GOOD ON YOU.

SIGNED,
THE ME I AM GOING TO BE.

Miracles Still Happen & They Take Your Breath Away...To The Me I Used To Be

I believe in miracles. I believe in blessings. I believe I am blessed to bless others. I am just not used to people coming through for me in the same manner. I am so used to saying Thank You, Lord or God (both)for that blessing; however, I have not had so good a track record with people going above and beyond to bless me. Today proved to me that I should. Perhaps, this is the year that God shows out on my behalf and honestly, I AM HERE FOR IT; I just have to become accustom to the feeling.

So, as I mentioned in a previous post, my car was unable to be moved until I was able to get it to the dealership. Well, I did and what happened before was A LOT of prayer because this used to be easy for me when my dad was still a mechanic. I got favor all the time, pull in, no ticket, pull out, car fixed, drive off... no cost. Well, I prayed to my heavenly father that this would go well. I prayed for favor and I asked him once more for the man that would make all these uncomfortable moments easier. I may not have a husband or even a companion to do that; but, MY HEAVENLY FATHER showed up and out and showered me with A LOT of BLESSINGS today.

Day 8: I drove to the dealership nervous. I spoke to a few people who led me to the correct area and then met Mr. Guidry, the guy who would go above and beyond to get my car back to me TODAY, but not at first. There were several vehicles being worked on already and two before me. Unfortunately for me, when I called on Saturday the receptionist never said I needed an appointment, she said "Oh, just come in on Monday and let them know what happened. We open at 7am". I sat and listened to him tell me it would be a few hours before they could give a diagnosis and maybe a couple days before I would have my car back. I have two warranties; but, one does not offer a car, the other does but won't cover it because the manufacturer's warranty is still in effect.

Catch 22 is what he called it and then stepped out for a moment. I called my dad, as he had suggested, and he had me show them what we found on Saturday and that, to my amazement, allowed a pre-diagnosis to go forth. I was surprised but dad was correct that the picture would help move things along. While they conversed amongst themselves, I took a moment to glance around the office. Mr. Guidry has won numerous golf competitions and I also noticed a Dale Carnegie Certificate on the wall. We have that in common, we begin a conversation about that and the conversation turned to God, another commonality. We talked about his wife saving his life. We talked about the past 5 years of my life and how nervous I was to come in today. I mentioned the prayer to God this morning and guess what happened... EVERYTHING CHANGED. He started speaking about his father, asking questions about mine, where I live, where I work, etc. It was a genuine conversation and it was nice.

So, he gets my car diagnosed and even got an approval for a rental. They gave me the run around at Enterprise. One of the employees of Ford drove me across town to pick up my rental... there was NONE. They called every Enterprise and guess what... NO CARS until tomorrow. So, I go home carless and having to go to work tomorrow. I am thinking, my poor baby will have to wake up early to drop me off and Enterprise would meet me at work with a car that afternoon. I wasn't happy; but neither was Mr. Guidry. He now wanted to take care of me. While I was at home telling my daughter that I would need a ride tomorrow, he was telling an associate that I need a car, so stay later and finish mine TODAY! When God make lives collide, when HE is placed in the midst he moves in ways you don't expect. I like Mr. Guidry, he was a very kind man; but, I never expected him to do all he did for me today. I saw his desk, I saw all the work he had to do and I know that he called Enterprise and the 3rd party warranty to ensure all was well.

Ty was hungry and excited about the fact that she got 2 job interviews tomorrow, so waking up early for me would not be a problem. I was supposed to start my diet/exercise program today; but we go to Walk-On's Bistreaux. We split a meal and talk... meanwhile, Mr. Guidry has called 3 times. I caught the last one, but not before he hung up. I call back to him telling me that they had the part in stock (water pump), they fixed my vehicle and it was ready to go! WHAT???!!! He said he didn't like the fact that I would have to come out of pocket for the rental and that they gave me the run around so, he got my vehicle back to me asap.

I praised God all the way there. I Thanked Mr. Guidry for being the guy God used today to answer my prayers. I hugged him while the lady hands me my receipt. I sign for my vehicle and walk out without paying a cent. God is amazing and there are still great people in the world. Miracles happen everyday... we just have to be open. I love that MY GOD, MY FATHER, hears me and answers even while I am asking. "Ask and you shall receive, knock and the door shall be opened to you, seek and you shall surely find". Notice, none of that scripture is a maybe... it is a definite. We must TRUST that God has us! That He hears us and wants to grant the desires of our heart. I needed help today. I needed FAVOR. I wasn't feeling well; but, I got up and faced my Goliath and Goliath fell. God was David's secret, not the slingshot. God is still a miracle working God, a favor granting God, a God who is near to those who call upon Him.

I must get used to this new place of miracles... I like this place. It is time that I expect favor and goodness everywhere I go and today was a great indication of how they happen. You solicit God's help, do your part and trust the process... even when it doesn't happen the way we expect, takes hours instead of minutes and doesn't even seem to be working. When you've succumb to all it seems to be (tomorrow after 2pm), we must remember God is a RIGHT NOW God and He can and will do what we can't. "The heart of the king is in God's hands and HE turns it withersoever He wills". I LOVE MIRACLES... but, I LOVE THE MIRACLE MAKER MORE.

Get used to this MIRACULOUS life,
FROM THE ME I AM GOING TO BE

Be Content Where You Are, You Won't Be There Long... To The Me I Used to Be

To The Me I Used To Be…

Day 7: Have you read something you wrote and it blew you away? I am amazed at the gift of writing that God has granted me. So, instead of writing anything NEW today, I am sharing something I wrote in 2015. I was at a different type of standstill; my daughter had just had surgery and I was caring for her. I wrote this divinely and in those moments, I am grateful for the Spirit of God within me, he keeps me centered and sure. I can tell when it is me writing and when there is an anointing upon me to write with such insight and knowledge... all Him, I am just the vessel; so, I hope you like this as much as I did when I read it again this morning.

The Word for today was CONTENTMENT

It is very easy to see what others post and begin to wonder about your journey; however, as I scrolled my feed very early this morning and began having some temporary thoughts, the LORD brought me back to my present situation... and reminded me that it is indeed a PRESENT!

I am blessed and highly favored. I am loved (that is an awesome observation considering I'm single) and I know how to give and receive love (awesome indeed). I have the most incredible daughter. I have a support system that I never experienced before. I have built a career upon the best parts of my 13 years of professional and managerial experience here in Lafayette as well as the years of continuous education and investment in myself (self-improvement) and NOW, I have the ability to set my own schedule... self-employed. I have everything I NEED. I am truly blessed.

Let's revisit the LOVE statement. Love comes in different forms and is as diverse as we are. There are several types of love and if we miss out on all that Love is and offers looking for the distorted (or not) views of what we see or think we lack, we lose. LOVE is all around us. Love is in the air we breathe and even in our capacity to still breathe this air... that is God's Love. Love is in our Salvation... Jesus loved us THAT much. Love is in the Holy Spirit's lead and guide into the successes of our lives. Love is in our families and friends, our connections, etc. LOVE IS IN US and all that we share with others. It's in our smile to those we know and to those we don't. Love is in the encouragement we give and receive. Love is in the prayers and the care that we grant others. It's in the TIME we give to others and to ourselves. LOVE cannot be measured, it simply has to be acknowledged and accepted.

Never compare your lives to others. Never compare your timing to others. God's time is PERFECT and as long as you can look at your life and your efforts and say I did my best or am doing my best... then you should be content. In whatever state you find yourself today; be content. Be content and prayerful and always strive for BEST each day. One day you'll look over your life, as I did today, and see that you are just where you're supposed to be AT THIS MOMENT... however, HERE is not your final destination. Just know, once you get THERE (where you're headed) ... there will have been another DREAM dropped in your spirit and YOUR JOURNEY WILL CONTINUE until you've breathed your last breath. So, ENJOY THE PROCESS... WATCH THE PROGRESS... THIS IS YOUR SUCCESS and it is NOT to be compared to other people who have been given different instruction, passion and purpose. Stay in your own lane... RUN YOUR RACE WITH PATIENCE. ENDURE TO THE END AND RECEIVE GOD'S PROMISE (PROPHECY) FOR YOUR LIVES.

Love, Peace & Contentment to you ALL...

God's Richest Blessing,
The Me I Am Going To BE

A Day Late... Not Short; To The Me I Used to Be.

I wanted to be able to post daily; but sometimes things happen to prevent that and in those situations, like a exercise regimen, you pick up, dust yourself off and start again. Today instead of writing two blogs, like I intended, I will write about both days in this one post.

Day 5:Well, today started off slowly. For some reason, while posting the prior night's post, I found myself struggling to actually see. My vision was blurred terribly and I was straining to see. Having said that, I may need to go proofread that one again.:) The reason for the blurred vision, I would later find out was another bout with pink eye/allergy eye. When I looked into a mirror, my eyes were almost completely covered. Good thing I always carry eye drops; however, when I awakened the next day, I had two issues happening... 1) my eyes were bloodshot and still nasty inside and 2)I was experiencing either an allergy attack and could barely breathe or my sinuses were inflamed. Regardless of how I felt, I got up and went to work. I hit a small pothole on my way there and by the time I got home, I was receiving an alert on my car about my engine. Yesterday was not one of my better days and you would think one would get in bed and wait for it to end; but not me. I found out that a movie I wanted to see came out that day and I begged my daughter to attend the 10:35pm feature with me. She had to drive anyway, since my car is still out of commission until Monday morning. Molly's Game was a great movie, in case anyone was considering it. We got in at 1:40am and still didn't sleep until 2:30am. I enjoyed the ending of my day, though I am still not up to par physically. I saw the silver lining in all the storms. I always attempt to find something wonderful in the day and treating Ty to a small dinner and a movie was a great ending. I missed her company.

Day 6: I slept in... like I had a choice! I was exhausted and I already mentioned that I am not at my best right now; however, dad called to see what I was doing about the car. I called my nephew to come check it out and he did. I still can't drive it yet; but, there is hope that whatever is causing the issue is still covered by the warranty (silver lining). I don't like feeling trapped and I was still able to get all I needed accomplished. Paid a few bills and helped Ty create a killer resume since she is no longer employed and loaded it to every job board. If you know of anyone who's hiring, hit her up, she is amazing and though she is only 19 years old, her resume is extremely impressive.

I love working to help others and it felt good to teach her how to represent herself well. I am still not feeling my best so I am heading to bed soon. Goodnight, Loves. I pray that you all are well and that 2018 has made its entrance into your life with goodness, light and love. I pray that you are finding all the answers you seek and that all that you desire is coming your way. One thing I really am EXCITED about is the new goal of weight loss and the fact that I have taken major steps toward that. Monday is my first day of a new regimen and I am looking forward to that. I believe that my focus has shifted and I am going after things I never thought I would before; but, THAT is the purpose of the blog... my life will NOT look like the previous years... this is the year to LIVE HEALTHY, LIVE WELL, LIVE IN EXPECTATION, LIVE BEAUTIFULLY, LIVE LOVINGLY and to LIVE PURPOSEFULLY. I AM LIVING MY PROPHECY AND THERE IS NOTHING IN THIS WORLD THAT IS GOING TO STOP THAT!!!

I AM MADE IN PURPOSE, FOR PURPOSE, FILL WITH PURPOSE WITH THE ASSIGNMENT TO GET YOU TO YOUR PURPOSE.

SIGNED,
THE ME I AM GOING TO BE.

Loving Your Will... To The Me I Used To Be

To The Me I Used To Be...

We are making this one short and sweet. Why? Because darling, you are tired. One of the things I realized is that I am tired because I only operate on 4.5 hours of sleep a day and that is not good for anything, anybody or any goal. After working, I came home and didn't want to move; but, I did persevere. I kept looking at the treadmill because I am still sore from the very first workout. Though my eyes wanted closure, my stomach wanted food and my body wanted/needed sleep; my heart wants change and I purposed within myself that my heart would get its way tonight.

Day 4: Today started off with an icicle of a car, it was so frozen, I had to stop twice to get the ice out of my way because I literally could not see and it probably didn't totally defrost until I was halfway to work. That had to be funny to so many people. I got to work and did everything within my power to take care of our clients. Today didn't work especially as I'd purposed; but as we all know, we cannot control other people, so I remain satisfied with my part to play in the day.

Getting home was where it kind of went downhill. I met with and enjoyed time with my daughter; but my body was hurting. Throbbing pain in my back and legs (and Ty is sitting on me). We watched a Nicholas Sparks movie and cried together, I cooked and made myself get on the treadmill for a bit. 20 minutes only, as my eyes were threatening to close and I could visualize myself flying off of it. That would definitely not be a pretty picture.

This blog will be the final thing I do before a bath and bed tonight. Sleep is dying to have its way with me and I am totally giving in. The night owl is becoming an early bird of sorts... 11:30pm is still a bit late for bed; but, I am proud of myself for forging through and maintaining my will or determination to workout, eat early and be in bed before midnight.

Goodnight My Love and Sweet Dreams,

Sincerely,
THE ME I AM GOING TO BE

Weird Days Are Accepted FOR NOW... The Me I Used to BE...

Dear The Me I Used to BE...

Today was weird for/to me. To say I am faced forward and looking for something NEW in every area of my life is not just a resolution for me, people make resolutions and then hardly follow through; however I am actually looking to create a new life. I have endured so much negativity in my life; that this year for me is about making my life look totally different by the time I turn 45 in October. There are so many things I desire to see differently and experience for the first time ever.

Day 3: So, today was weird in that it felt much like last year and exactly what I am trying to avoid at all cost. Isn't it funny when you make up your mind for change, you almost live in the new place more than you do the transitional space and because of that, today was not my best. The great part about it is that I clung to the vision of the new so much that I accidentally ran into an old friend who was speaking to me about her tangible change and when she asked about me, I began to go into the most vividly detailed parts of where I wish to see change. I explained it so thoroughly that she SAW it with me, for me. She was super excited about what I am doing (not attempting to do). That at least made the fact that I came home exhausted and took a nap like I used to do in 2017 and the very thing I am leaving behind, different. I did the opposite of what I wanted; it's okay though because I see it as it is... a day in a life. We have 362 more to go and they will not resemble this one at all, I guarantee.

I also called a family member (ex-sis in love)and reiterated what I am accomplishing this year. I explained to both, the friend and sister, that I am even thinking about a geographical change, career change, status change (single, ready for marriage), physical change, spiritual depth and I am actually looking to be more social (more outgoing). I know EXACTLY what I desire in a mate, I am working on building a future career, while enjoying and giving my all where I currently am. I know who I am supposed to be, I know what I am supposed to look like, I know what I aspired to feel like, I am excited about cultivating new friendships, I am ready to emerge from the inside out... there is a wonderful woman within me and she is screaming to make her entrance not only this year; but NOW. She is dying to live... which means death to the old me and living my prophecy (life) to the fullest.

Today resembled yesteryear in that I was extremely exhausted and needed to rest; but with each passing day, my mentality has catapulted me to a new dimension spiritually. I always have said that whatever you SEE in the natural has gotten its start in the spiritual realm. You must be able to see it spiritually before you can SEE it manifest naturally. I have already seen the manifestation of my future self/life and I am not stopping until I SEE it and live it daily for the rest of my life. The fact that I made it HERE, to this blog, today shows me that the resemblance of this day to last year, is still different. It is the choices we make daily that changes our lives and my dedication to this blog that came to me on New Year's Eve is indeed a change toward the better. This day was weird; but, it was not truly like last year. I refuse to revisit that place in totality ever again. Here's to small differences in what seems to be the mundane, for it is indeed those differences that makes the difference.

Love You DEARLY LADY,

THE ME I AM GOING TO BE

Major Changes Today... The Me I Used To BE

Dear The Me I Used To Be...

I usually am so exhausted after work because I am not used to going to bed late (which I always do) and waking up so early (what I have to do). I usually come home and whether I want to or not, I fall asleep for a few hours. That causes two problems for me: 1) I am not eating at the proper times because when I awake it is already late and 2) I am not moving enough throughout the day to not gain weight after eating so late. So, I am determined to find the svelte lady that is hidden within me. She has been through a lot of struggle in her 44 years and because of some of those issues she has been hiding for a while. It is time to find, see and love me again.

Day 2 on this journey: I have called someone who has taken the initiative in her own life and she has had a major transformation. I am following her program and believing for myself to have the same or better results for my journey. We are doing a few things differently. I am changing my eating habits immediately, no more late nights. I am drinking more water daily. I am working out frequently. I am following/chasing hard after me in this season. It is time to let the REAL "FLY" ME out of my shell. It is time to LIVE OUT LOUD. No more playing it safe. No more lazy days. The determination I needed and have been praying for is here and if it should fade, I have a new friend to call for that. Thank you J.E., I truly appreciate you taking the time out of your day to help get me where I need to be.

Life is what we make it and in the past 6 years, I have been so focused on my daughter that I forgot to focus on me. Now, we are in a different space and my focus is primarily on me. There are major changes coming and I welcome them all. It's a New Year and, it is time for a NEW ME: it's a New Season, it's a New Day, a fresh anointing is flowing my way and I am so excited and READY for it.

Love,
The Me I Am Going To BE...

Happy New Year to the ME I Used to BE!

Good Day Love,

So yesterday you decided that you wanted to live and no longer feel like you're just existing. Each day, live out loud and be happy no matter what happens. You want so much more than you have and so much more than you've experienced with the people currently in your life. It is time to make room for more. It is time to be more courageous, more involved in your life, no more playing the spectator, it is participation time. You want to be healthier, perfectly fit, to find love, to have joy always and just be your wonderful self.

Day One ~ January 1st: You cooked all night, woke up late, visited with your chiropractor and then you treated a friend to a movie on this cold beautiful first day of the year. It is 25 degrees, freezing cold and you two went to see Star Wars, not your type of movie; but, even that was sweet. You paid and compromised on the movie... it felt really good to do so. You always said you are blessed to be a blessing and it felt amazing doing something unexpected and nice for someone else. Life is about peace, joy, laughter and love. The love will come in an intimate way some day; but for now, the love in your life is simple, platonic and sweet and it isn't going anywhere. One day you will have the special love you were promised; but for now, you will enjoy each day of the rest of your life, starting NOW.

This blog will capture your next year: the good, bad, and the really great! This is your time, sweetheart... no matter what this year brings, you will see it daily HERE. It's YOUR LIFE and it is within your POWER to make it WONDERFUL, so let's do it.

Here to a New Beginning on this New Year 2018!

Signed,
The ME I Am Going To BE...